Forreal, saying that you trust so & so more than this person and that person when this person and that person are right in front of you. Oh, and this person and that person have been with you since day one. How selfish, how low, how immature. You obviously do not know how to appreciate what you have.

Do not ever allow sadness to take such a hold of your spirit that it leads you to forget the joy of the resurrected Christ.

We all long for God’s paradise, but we all have the opportunity to find ourselves in it right here. We only need to be happy with Christ right here and now.

In my own words- Mother Teresa

Love is, just like Christ himself showed with his death, the greatest gift.

In my Own Words, Mother Teresa

It’s because there’s still that little string of hope. It isn’t the things we did or anything I crave. It’s that little bit of hope. I’m not trying to get them up so high, but  they’re there. & because they are, that’s why.

“Hey ____, why don’t you have a boyfriend?”

I know it’s been a while since you have asked me, and I know you’re still waiting for my answer, but I can’t be straight forward with you.

I guess right now, I’m just not used to it. I’ve been single for pfft over a year now and I’m so accustomed to it that letting anyone in scares me. People tell me to go date, and I just look at them saying, “why?” Why would I do that if I know I’m not going to develop feelings for them. I’m the type of person that just knows that I will never like someone, therefore, I don’t waste my time.

I’m not looking, and I don’t want to start looking. Because last time when I wasn’t looking, I was blessed with such a wonderful boyfriend in my life. Yeah, things ended, but it was a blessing in disguise where the lessons I learned shaped me into the person I am today.

As lonely as it is sometimes to watch movies by yourself, to go out and not being able to hold hands with someone, I’d rather not want someone if at those moments I say, “I wish I had someone.” No, I wish I had someone all the time, not just in those special moments because if I was to get into a relationship and only like my significant other during “those times” then whats the use.

I also haven’t met someone that had intellectually seduced me. Nor someone with amazing taste in music. I mean, when you’re in the car with them and all they play is shitty music, I want to get out. Also, when I’m having a conversation i don’t want it to be me yapping about a certain subject that the other fails to comprehend or doesn’t even try to put in his two cents.

This is going all over the place, but basically, when God wants me to have a boyfriend, I’ll have a boyfriend.

2NAI

This suffering you are going through is going to get you closer to God

I hate to question you God, but I do. I just want to know why I’m going through all of this, and it doesn’t seem like it’s getting better. But I reassure myself with your love because I know you have a greater plan for me.

wewritewespeak’s topic is attraction, and I would post mine up there but this is going to get confusing.

You see I’m attracted to all the individual has to offer. I’m attracted to the fact that I will be able to see this individual grow and that I can grow with this person. I’m attracted to the killer smile that i feel i can just drop dead right at that moment. I’m attracted to his mind because I want to know the ins and outs and his perception on everything.

I’m attracted to boys that want to debate because it’s such a beautiful thing to see people stand up instead of backing down. I’m attracted to men who know what they are talking about and can use it as a reference. I’m attracted to men who are not ashamed to show their love for God. I’m attracted to men who say I want to be like mother Mary. I’m attracted to men who have goals and ambitions in life and are reaching them at this very moment.

I’m attracted to show much but really this is just attraction. I don’t want anything right now, I don’t want to date, i don’t want to do anything outside this bubble of mine. I want to make sure that what I have with a person is not lust, but love. But I’m too young so it’s these attractions that pull me in, luckily I have my ground and can say I’m proud to simply be independent (and I don’t need no man).

I’m losing my individual self, and it’s not pretty. I need a break, but it seems like I have to resort to this when I want to write.